My Obsession

Forgive me if i have wrong ideas. I dont think that i have wrong ideas. Being a Gogo Dancer like Lady Gaga is an excellent job. Well, recently my mind is full of him.WTF!!!i cant for not thinking of him. So i decide to be like Lady Gaga. I admired her so much.more than my mom. She is fabulous.Her fashion,her dance,everything.i gain my perfect confidence from her. She made me feel like i'm the best. I can do better than those bitches.I've been regretted bcuz i have big boobs, but today.i changed.so what if i have big boobs??i should proud of them.If i want to be myself,i have to accept what my body is.Thanks Lady Gaga. YOu reminded me to who I am. YOu are the best.

I dont know how to begin.and i dont know how to end.everything seems so crazy for me.this week will be something crazy stuff.again it is my irritating aunt.she is typical mother.she doesnt care about other.all she knows just about her son who is good for nothing.first,i'm trying to spend my time for my freedom.this evening she asked me to help her for arranging her son's bday.huh!i hate it!!!becuz she involved me!i'm single.i enjoy my freedom though i want to have boyfriend sometimes.$300 per week is expensive.well,it's not say that i'm stingy.but if i take time to think about it,it's too much.i dont know what's my feeling now.it's mixed up....crap...anyway,i just want to say i want move!!!!

Girls should be stronger than boys!

I know it's not easy. i'm going thru this also. Too painful. Sometimes,you dont know to who you can tell. All you do is just keep it inside. I took a long time to think and eventually i realised is just wasting my time. He is not the only for me. I'm hoping for unreal thing. i'm so tired to wait. It just killing me softly. The only thing i do is go to church. i love Catholic. I love my God. No more tears rolling down. The voice tells me to be strong. Never never never think about him. If he can make me happy,he would do that from the very first time. All he does to satisfy himself. Again, i need something to make me strong. Suddenly,the voices tell me. They remind me to my goal. My goal is Bachelor of Nursing at ACU in 2010. So i found my strength in it. No more boyfriend/girlfriend relationship! Focus on my goal.

In love with music so much

This afternoon,while i was walking down to Wynyard,someone touched me. It's like someone who was calling me. Yes, he was there. He asked me where am I going. I told him that i'll go to HMV. He told me that HMV is close due to renovation. So i thought i might go home by Wynyard station. But he showed me Virgin store where it's almost exactly like HMV ( HMV is better ).He was totally different. I felt like i didnt know him at all. Anyway, I dont want talk about him too much. Indeed I can write a whole book about him. So I went there and looking for new album. Guess what? I found what i want. I bought Lady Gaga's album. At first i thought it was stupid song but after that i realized the songs are amazing. You should listen to "Poker FAce". This song make me alive. So please have a try!

Bad day or happy day??

Well,something bad happened to me this morning. I was feeding my cousin and suddenly he hit the food. The food fell onto carpet in Sunday School Class. Terrible cause I was suffered. My pants became dirty and smelly. I'm not a patient person to children. Ie2 Margaret felt bad of this. She and her busband had to bring me home to change my pants. I was very very very very angry actually but something had changed. They brought me to Sydney Fish Market. For the first time that i went there and try lobster as well. I felt i was in heaven for the moment. I love seafood. OMG!!! i wish i can get back and eat seafood again. The food are expensive. You have to prepare credit card or a large amount of cash. I ate Sashimi as well. It was real fresh Salmon. Not last, i ate Oyster too. Really love all of them. So try it by yourself. Don't miss it. Then at 5 pm, we went to Pyrmont for fishing. Guess what? I was freezing to death. The wind blew very hard. I was almost fly but I didn't. That was fortunate,yeah! Unfortunately, we didn't catch any fish because of the weather. Quite disappointing. So my uncle plan the next fishing trip next week. That's all for today. I was very tired. Bye. GBU *_*

Children

Today is quite tiring for me. I was taking care of sunday school children. They were innocent and so naughty. Well, it's a temptation for me. I learnt something from this experience. Being a parent is hardest thing to do. Children didnt know how is their parents to protect them. They just gain comfort. For parents, don't expect many things from your children. Let they grow up to be who they are. I always believe everyone is special. Nothing good and bad if they know how to handle it. So please. Don't worry too much. Just believe in them.