I am more or less a bitch to you!

I guess I will never be able to walk out from this for the rest of my life. Now, I am having you here doesn't please me at all. Indeed, I am trapped in the guilt.

There are many things in life as we want to be. Things like career, money, family, and so on. Apart of that, I am too different from anybody. Love doesn't come to the first place. Why would I bothered?

If you ever have the thought like mine, you better put awareness to yourself. Moreover, you might end up to be nothing.

Him ~
He is a guy who I shouldn't be with. But all things went wrong. He is the most beloved person of my life. After almost two years, I couldn't say "NO" to him. Whether I am such a fool or love is never exist unfortunately. From the very first place, I have been kept telling myself to walk away, leave everything behind, and start the new one.

Yet those promises are never work on me. As long as I am here, in Sydney with him, the feeling still engulfed me with vengeance. So yeah, I have nothing to say but just want to forget everything in life.