Finally after such long time, we talked again. This time, you are very corperative. I should say you are very different now compared to last 2 years. You are very mature, no crazy talks, no flirt or inappropriate questions. I am thankful you have realised what's the best and you didnt take it for granted. I know how much I wanted to say I still want you. How much I miss the time we were together, those are unforgetable moments. Nevertheless, we are very different now. Feelings may stay the same, but we can't go back to where we were. Let them be the past,start moving on.
So much things to tell you, and this time I am more cautious to what I am saying. I have to be calm, not involving deep emotions, balance our mood during chat, etc. I am grateful to be where I am right now. Although I cant have you all the time, but being there and I know you are there is more than enough. I did wish and keep wishing to be yours only, to be able spend more time with you, to be able be the one who is in your heart. As the matter of facts, those wishes will be only wishes. You have given me so much hope. But this time I'll keep stay strong in where I am.
For the sake of your, for the sake of her, for the sake of people around us, let the time take place. Eventually, if we meant to be together, we will be in future and always be.
To you:
I still love you though you'll not love me back, I still care for you though you may not.
Keep breathing happily is more than enough for me. :)
Monday, May 30, 2011
Monday, May 23, 2011
Need You Now!
How long it has been?It has been a month and today out of sudden you called me on messenger. Tell me, is it my fault to have this feeling? The feeling of guilt loving you. If I ever ask people, they will say Im stupid or it isnt love! Then if it is not love, why you are always on my mind? Why every second of my life you are there? Though we do not talk and build the walls surround us, still the feeling does not change at all.
Then tell me, is it my fault to love you in silence? To have this feeling which I shouldnt have? or is it just me hurting myself? Hey, I would never ever deny that I loved you once. I am never ashamed about it. Do you?
I pray to God, pray that I will ever forget you. I pray to God if there is drug can take this feeling away, I promise not to look back. But you are the shadow of mine. Wherever I go, there you are.
I pray to God the next morning I wake up, you will be gone as the wind.
Anyway, move on is the right thing to do for me. Nevertheless, dreams and goals awaits me.
Ciao ~~
Then tell me, is it my fault to love you in silence? To have this feeling which I shouldnt have? or is it just me hurting myself? Hey, I would never ever deny that I loved you once. I am never ashamed about it. Do you?
I pray to God, pray that I will ever forget you. I pray to God if there is drug can take this feeling away, I promise not to look back. But you are the shadow of mine. Wherever I go, there you are.
I pray to God the next morning I wake up, you will be gone as the wind.
Anyway, move on is the right thing to do for me. Nevertheless, dreams and goals awaits me.
Ciao ~~
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